http://alexcowden.wordpress.com The daily life and rantings of Alex Cowden Sat, 14 Oct 2006 03:10:07 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.png http://alexcowden.wordpress.com http://alexcowden.wordpress.com/2006/10/14/im-falling-apart/ http://alexcowden.wordpress.com/2006/10/14/im-falling-apart/#comments Sat, 14 Oct 2006 03:10:07 +0000 Alex http://alexcowden.wordpress.com/2006/10/14/im-falling-apart/ ]]> Well, lately I have been a bit moody and depressed. This is mainly because of my inferiority complex. You can pretty much thank the Skin Zone and school for that. So, I’ve noticed that I’ve been an asshole to some of my greater friends lately; Phazix, Motley, and some others. I’m deeply sorry. I’ve thought about leaving the internet and just focusing on my shitty life at school and home. (Sounds fun, hm?). That’s what I’ll probably end up doing anyways. The fact that anything I do cannot live even within thought for more than a while depresses me. It makes me feel stupid and not needed. For fucks sake, I have CA which died and I sold it. I also had Exo Styles, Numerique’s Retribution, PokeDome, GamingSphere, and some more ideas and they just kept dying. Mainly because of the assholes that kept discouraging me (Thanks guys, you’re real pals!) because I always give up. Wish to know why I give up? Self esteem. Mine’s low and no matter what I do, it won’t get better. My life’s complicated and I’m scared to be honest.

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